I once read that the most valuable baseball card was sold for $3.12 million. The card was the 1909-11 Honus Wagner, and it holds the record for the most expensive baseball card sold in an auction.
It is hard for me to really imagine someone offering $3.12 million for a paper baseball card that has no practical use whatsoever. You can’t eat it. You can’t wear it. You can’t ride it. You can’t live in it, nor can you share it. You would think that the value of something would be measured by its practical value. With this baseball card, however, someone must have seen its worth in order to pay the hefty amount of $3.12 million.
When I was in high school, I struggled with self-image as I was insecure about myself. I always compared myself to others and I hated and devalued myself when I didn’t measure up to beauty standards. I believed the thoughts I had about myself. I believed that I was worthless, ugly, unlovable and so insignificant that I could die; and nobody would even miss me.
I went to the extreme with myself. I couldn’t tolerate who I saw in the mirror. So, I avoided mirrors altogether. I understood I was only hurting myself when I had those intrusive thoughts. So, I tried to appreciate myself. But it felt like I could not escape my thoughts. I was a prisoner to my own self-deprecating ideas and the more I tried to build confidence and find some self-worth, the louder those ideas seemed to get.
One night while I read the book Steps to Christ, I read about a God who loved me so much, and saw enough worth in me, that He spent everything He had on me: He spent His life. Never have I felt more special in my life than the moment I understood God’s love for me–a love that was enough for Him to leave a comfortable home and throne to die and suffer for someone I once thought was worthless.
As the Kristian Stanfill song says, “Jesus paid it all, all to Him I owe. Sin had left a crimson stain, but Jesus washed me white as snow.”
From that moment, I was led on a journey to the heart of God. And in my life, scripture has been fulfilled: “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new” – 2 Corinthians 5:17.
Jesus set me free, and He liberated me from the shackles of self-hatred and depression. In Jesus I found worth and freedom from all the let-downs I faced and believed. In Jesus I found purpose for my life. I found freedom. I found happiness. I discovered what true love is. I found confidence. I found a friend. And, in Jesus, I found my all-in-all.
“You were not redeemed with corruptible things, like silver or gold. …but with the precious blood of Christ, as of a lamb without blemish and without spot.” 1 Peter 1:18-19.
Just like that 1909-11 Honus Wagner card, we are of great value. In fact, we are worth a lot more than $3.12 million. We are worth the life of the Savior and Creator of the universe. And, if He sees great value in us, why can’t we see value in ourselves?
Never forget that you’re the most expensive thing in the universe, and Jesus paid it all for you.