I had a spiritual high after recommitting my life to Jesus several months ago. At the time, it seemed crazy to me that I had never been close to Jesus before. Even crazier I thought, was the idea that some people could have a spiritual dry season after experiencing the fullness of the love of Christ.
I later had my taste of a dry season, and I am still struggling with it.
At the beginning of a couple of busy weeks, my consistent and rigorous daily time with Jesus came to a sudden hiatus. I can’t pinpoint the exact day I stopped reading my Bible daily or the day I stopped constantly praying. But I can identify the time when it started affecting my daily life.
As I was barely getting through the busy weeks, everything started to get harder. I stopped understanding what was going on in classes. I was barely keeping up with assignments. My job as a Resident Assistant in the dorm became more challenging and I was even messing up my sleep schedule big time.
It was also during this time that I started constantly having feelings of self-doubt. I didn’t feel like a good enough student, friend, daughter, employee, RA just an overall person. In fact, I felt really crappy about myself.
I knew that something was wrong; and what is most upsetting: I knew what was wrong. I knew that if I were to spend more time with God, my problems wouldn’t be magically fixed, but I would at least have peace through the struggles.
However, I still wasn’t capable of spending time with God. I kept reminding myself that I needed to be intentional about seeking God, but I wasn’t.
This is my dry season. Looking for the motivation to seek God is not as easy as I thought it would be.
As I am slowly getting back into the habit of intentionally spending time with God, here are a few of my takeaways from this season.
- Any short amount of time that you can give to God, counts. Don’t stop yourself from spending time with Him because you think it’s not enough.
- Make it a priority. I wish I had dropped everything then, and spent some time with God instead. The smallest amount of time spent with Him, would have made the biggest difference.
- If your relationship with God is not strong enough before this season, you are unlikely to survive it. I believe the reason it has taken me so long to get back into a consistent routine is because my relationship with God wasn’t strong enough to begin with. I would have made my way back to consistency more easily if I had been clinging to Him harder.
- It helps to share this struggle with others. The people that truly care about you will always be encouraging you to pursue your relationship with God.
- Be kind to yourself. This has been crucial for me. I have learned that guilt-tripping myself is not an effective way of getting me closer to God. It does not help me to be intentional about our relationship either. So, I am working on being understanding with myself, the same way I would be to others.
In every dry season that you might be dealing with, remember this: Take it one day at a time. If this seems like too much, take it hour-by-hour. You are not expected to have it all figured out; and remember that God is understanding of our needs and struggles.